sooo...
I wrote these poems this morning at about 4:00

Drowning Rain -- 22/6/2009

I realize that my lungs are full of fire.

Unable to stand the pain,

these flames unquenchable.

I exhale: that short gasping breath of desire.

I want to breathe air.

No more of this drowning rain.

Slowly, I find hope in fantasy, life in distraction,

But to believe that, I was a fool,

in this life so unfair.

I should have never expected satisfaction.

Shards of a Heart -- 22/6/2009

I tear myself open, hoping, expecting to find

Something normal, something whole.

But instead, as my blunt fingernails dig through

The skin, pry my ribs apart, I find

Only fragments of something wholly unfamiliar.

There's no use trying to put it back

Together, and it's not even worth it. I scoop the

Wreckage back into my chest, along with

The filth it has gathered during its inspection and

Attempts at recovery. It will continue to

Eat away at my breast, its shards driving deep.

Mist --22/6/2009

A silent creeping mist stalks across

The ground from tree to tree, pooling in

Hollows, fleeing from hummocks.

It steals under my eyelids, slips

Under my eyeballs into my welcoming

Brain. To the world at large I whisper,

"goodbye..."